I Live One of Those Lives

I live one of those lives
Where I care too much
And I care too little
And I get fucked
In between
I live one of those lives
Where when my day ends
It never ends
I just pass back in
Into the same fucking
Place I left it
Irritated
I live one of those lives
In which I feel awkward
Using coupons
And expression
And hand gestures
And toll booths
I live one of those lives
Where I drink so much
Coffee
I need to drink so much
Alcohol
And in between
I don't know if
I'm just fucked up
Or fucked up
I live one of those lives
That loves to love
When I'm in love
But loves to be alone
When
I am alone
And wants to be
Alone in love
Perhaps just with
The dream
I live one of those lives
Where when I'm away
I think of home
And when I'm home
I think of being away
I live one of those lives
That hates driving
But misses the road
At night
In the desert
Anywhere
With love but
Alone
Home but
Away
Fucked up
I live one of those lives
Where I feel that I have
About four more
I live one of those lives
Where if I see one more
Ex-girlfriend and it
Actually isn't an ex-girlfriend
But I panicked anyway
I will consider moving away
But probably won't
This city is mine
I live one of those lives
That is outliving
Relationships
Pets
Scenes
Trends
Architecture
Columnists
Newspaper clippings
Politics
Venues
Memory
I'm no vampire
But I am starting to think
That I am living too long
Because everything keeps changing
So quickly
A hundred years
Is now maybe ten
And I don't give a fuck
But I do
I live one of those lives
Where someone wheels me
In front of a wall
And all I can think of
Are the oceans
And vaginas
That I visited
And that I'm still
Here
Just turn me around
Let me face a window
"Fuck your goddamned coffee break!"
But I have no mouth
No voice
I live one of those lives
That ends
Once the final credit
Scrolls up
And the other asshole
Still in the movie theater
Says
"That sucked!"
And there was no indication
Of a sequel